space in between

So, now I don´t edit anymore. Which is a relief and I´m somewhat relaxed. But I´m in a bit strange place now. I do graphic designs for the dvd and colorcorrections and stickers and chestbuttons and the sound designing haven´t even started yet. We have had some softwareproblems, and the premiere date is very uncertain now..dvd printing will be done in Estonia cause its much more cheaper there. it will take 2 weeks to get the dvds from there..there will be 300 copies of the movie..?! but it will cost as much to do them as it would to make 100 in finland.. so..buy! price will be announced later.
The song we have in the film, Kauko Röyhkä - Kotikaupunkini, played by Mikko Nenonen will cost us 250 euros to put it in. Thats a bit shame. But there is no other choice. We also had to ask the permission to use Kaukos lyrics, but that went quite easily; " Voit käyttää uudelleen sävellettyä Kotikaupunkini-tekstiä elokuvassasi. Kauko Röyhkä" ( basicly like this: you can use my lyrics) I got this e-mail from him yesterday. Thanks kauko!
But now when the film is out of my hands sort of, I´m beginning to be frustrated. There are moments, like now when I hate the film and I´m really ashamed that I made this kind of film. Bad film. I know, that this is all really absurd and so on, but when the film is finished, I have been working on it for a year. A whole year. Thats a lot of time. And it isn't anything remarkable. the film. This kind of feeling gives you a new push to do something else. But also it feels really hard, cause I'm still a bit tired from this project, not so much anymore. but anyway. I'm really insecure. I just want this all to be over. Cause it isn't so big thing after all. or is it?
I just wish I could do things one at the time. I feel like everything that I am doing, Im thinking something else at the same time..but I guess that is impossible, unless you just do one thing..this doesn´t make any sense anymore.
Some ideas for the next film. It will take place in fall, few years in the future. There will be a strong lead character, unlike this film I did, it will not be a realistic film, altough it will take place in this world, but not quite. hard to explain. better not. It will probably be shot in Helsinki. ..